Just came back from penang 2 days ago.
I must say that it was a great experience and that i think i opened up slightly more.
The support and affirmation of my fellow rnj tacs really made me very happy and encouraged me a lot.

But now that we are back in reality, i have a feeling that things won't be THAT different after all. I thought it was all going to change. I dunno. I guess this experience has taught me that nothing is impossible with God and that He has indeed heard my prayers. perhaps it is I who need to conscientiously put in my own effort? i can't answer that i think.

Anyway, the penang trip itself was really great. We arrived at the retreat centre to find that it situated right at the doorstep of the beach. really really beautiful, esp with the sound of the crashing waves in the background. there was one morning ( i think the 1st morn after our arrival) where we had our opening prayer for the day held in the conference room. the room had windows on 3 of its 4 walls and it directly overlooked the sea. and the windows were all open and the sea breeze cld come in and everything. so nice. being so close to the sea was so comforting yet exhilarating.

blah i dun feel like gg on.

and christmas eve is tmr. its so fast. it doesn't even feel christmassy at all. what happened to the xmas spirit? i feel so dead and ancient. i think.. this is called growing up. :/

i feel so cynical and sad and moany woany. shoot me.