Freak, I hate my class. Apparently someone told me about people saying i must have studied too hard till i fell sick and didn't come to school. Oh, thanks a lot. i myself didn't know i'd studied. Thanks, the whole lot of you nice people. i'm so swept away.

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And my pw group so called blamed me for not turning up so they can't do much with their written report. erm crap? you've just been lazy asses not bothered with wr at all. omg i can't stand it. and i'm like criticised for being 'mugger' by some ppl? for one, i don't even mug. secondly, i think being lazy is a far WORSE crime than being mugger. oh, just ask LEM. worst slacker i've ever seen. And i don't even tell anyone about her liability to the lit presentation we were both supp to do together, i just keep it all to myself just to save her face. I don't know why... in jc my classmates actually NOTICE that i'm absent or REMEMBER that i was absent the previous day. its incredible! i'm so impressed. no one usually noticed my absence in sec sch. wow. thanks, guys.

I think my class is malicious in a way.. They'll act nice and friendly in front of you, but they're really just looking at you in a critical light. Its really evident, not to mention scary, when you hear some of the laughter. malicious ones....

And i don't think anyone's really close to anyone. take the mugger group for example... its always bitching about people, bitching about people within the group even! and its all done in a sorta conversational way, just to mask it up. they don't even go for outings or what. their conversation is PW PW PW.

i dunno.. i don't trust anyone in school. i think niamreg is right... school people can't be trusted. must remind myself lest i forget it.

ps. i feel like getting all bitchy now. i know, i'm not a bitchy person man. i'm just getting annoyed at people and i just feel like lashing out in my full judgemental force. rahhhh. and some people! they just laugh it off... omg is it even humanly possible? to be laughed upon and wanting to get angry but being unable to seeing that everyone was laughing so hard and just 'accepting it'? hmm. i dunno. its really lucky if you're a likeable person. if you aren't though.. tsk, more such stuff to come rolling your way. alright! so maybe i don't know if such people will stand by you when you're in need. what's a friend anyway? one whom you can laugh with and have fun, or one whom you can trust to weather storms with you? If you realise... there are some people u can trust with your personal stuff. but they aren't necessarily the people u can clique with and have fun. So which is more important, who should one keep..