i'm very bored. i ponned school today to study for my math and chem test tomorrow but i haven't even started. my math tutor is cranky and my chem tutor is mad. i am not ejoying myself at school because the people around me keep talking about ponning school and grumbling about how bad and how un-slack 1st 3 months is. ... negative energy all around. i can't wait to get back my o level results. even though i have some inner fear about my results, its something i look forward to, to see what i have achieved. of course if i get terrible results i'll be very upset but i'll just have to accept it. and move on. i'm not sure if i want to stay at c j cos i'll have to see my results first. i think i'm pretty hopeful of getting a good grade for my o's but then when i think of the papers i did i am not too sure. my greatest wish is to not put myself to shame. i don't have any specific grade that i expect or wish to get. i think its vaguely around the low tens region or maybe a single digit. the lower the better. and so stupid, results are said to be out on 9th feb, friday, not 5th feb, monday. one whole week of torture in school. have i said i don't like school? and have i mentioned that i don't think i have changed very much despite feeling like i would? :/ i don't like my life as it is.

i'm going to fail my tests and get a blasting from my tutors. .. but of cos i hope it won't happen. i shall study now. i feel tired though. its the afternoon sun. its putting me to sleep.

how many percent of your life do u live?