i feel tired. no, i am tired. emotionally/mentally/physically/whatever. SIAN.


X/

i'm tired of dumb comp essays. stacks of hw. the repetitious cycle of tuitions after tuitions. the ups and downs of feelings/emotions. of what people think of me. of my inhibitions. of my fears. of my inabilities. of what i am not. of what i am.



life gets tiring. i feel drained. like, very. suddenly.



i'm scared of speech.


of facing the "tomorrows" in my life. seriously.



wish i can be lifted out of this. (not really possible, is it?)



the burdens.... homework homework homework. and expectations. crap.. my own expectations of myself of everything. feels so heavy to lift.


:/



i need a mood-uplifter or sth.